Well, my apologies for the brash title but thats exactly how I felt when my oncologist called and gave me the report (stage 4 bone cancer) just hours before we entered 2015. Here I am thinking I have had slight pain in my back due to cramps. Mother nature was not to blame for this one. I actually was happy I had a cycle, most women who have chemotherapy it takes years for them to get one. Imagine that, I was happy to be bleeding and having cramps. You can’t tell me God doesn’t have a sense of humor. So after I quietly told my oncologist “um ok I guess we will go from here.” I burst into a million tears. Here I was thinking that I kicked cancers butt and had crossed the finish line, I was back where I started. I can not explain to you the immediate thoughts that I had. The resounding underlying tone in it all was, I was going to die and I was very afraid.
This has almost been a month ago and I will not lie and say that I’m all happy and dancing around my house like I popped a molly. Well actually the meds I take do make me sweat like I’m on X in a rave but that’s a whole other story. But, I think I found a happy medium. I chose to speak things into existence and I declare that I am cancer free, but I also am comfortable in not being afraid of death. I damn sure ain’t welcoming it, but I’m not scared either. See the thing about fear is that it blocks you from getting to the next level of faith. If you’re afraid of the worse possible outcome it will continually paralyze you from getting to the next level. I don’t want sympathy and I don’t want money. What I want is two things. For people to stop thinking cancer is a death sentence. It isn’t, it is just as intolerable as the flu. Things only have as much power as you assign it. I give it zero power. I also want anyone facing any type of obstacle to keep pushing. Stare the worse case scenario in the face and know that it isn’t part of your destiny.
We are destined to be great, to leave great legacies and to be full of prosperity. Nothing foreign that enters your body has to stay there. You have to believe that God is a healer of anything. Even in you having it you can still continue to fight, be happy and feel good. I pray that in your darkest hour no matter what it is, that through faith in a higher source, belief in yourself, maintaining a healthy lifestyle and by living in love you can conquer anything.
I will try to blog as much as I can. I have a lot on my mind and I’m willing to answer questions. Let me know just email me. I pray you all have beautiful and blessed lives.
Zeralyn or Tara if you nicesty.
Sooooo unfortunately, one of my favorite celebrity couples Jas Prince and Christina Milian have broke up. From what I hear my Houston people say he’s handling it great. Well thats good. Well after they broke up I guess Christina went back to the Young Money stable and is dating Lil Wayne again… (scratches yaki)
According to Necole Bitchie, the two were seen leaving the BET Awards after party together. I guess, Wayne just loves him some women. You can’t even be mad at that. I’m sure however, with the check The Dream sends Christina in alimony and child support she’s just having fun.
Well either way I hope they are all having fun…Check out Wayne’s latest single Krazy from his upcoming Carter V release.
LMAOOOOOOOOO all the money and people are dodging you like Sallie Mae. He was grabbing at her like the woman with the issue of blood trying to catch the hem of Jeusus’ garment… That’s because he’s messy. Can’t say I’m not surprised Tiny ran like that, she probably learned from that last little mix up. I’m not even sure what happened, something about her posing in a pic with Mayweather and then T.I. tried to fight him. (insert that face everyone makes when a check that gets deposited is on hold).
Which, I’m surprised he even did this because TMZ caught him earlier trying to garner the attention of his ex Shantel Jackson and she was Ray Charles to his BS.
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Lord, fix it. Clearly Shantel is over his shenanigans especially after trying to make her look bad by saying she aborted their babies. No amount of money or fame are worth being constantly disrespected. And after his baby mother sent him to jail for beating her, apparently he’s more than verbally abusive. May I suggest some time with Iyanla or a therapist. Blah
It’s no The Secret that Rick Ross has clearly been using some of the chicks he smashes waist trainers… He definitely gets a standing ovation from me, mostly because I can’t just say no yet to Wing Stop. Those lemon pepper wings is yasssssssss Lawd live!! Well, apparently last night at the awards Ricky Rozay was the target of comedian Chris Rock. He said something to the extent of “Dr.Dre has Beats and Ross has DiaBEATS”… Now, from the comedy side of things this is FUNNY. From a health perspective this joke is a bit malicious. According to almost 29 million Americans suffer from Diabetes.
So was Chris Rock wrong? Was he being insensitive to Ross’ weight loss. Was Rick Ross just hungry and irritable and took to the joke incorrectly? When I’m hungry everything makes me upset. Specially if he was wearing his corset, because you have to wear those things 24/7.. Will his next mix-tape be called “Whats a Waist”? All these questions I have, but fact remains Rick Ross got a bit perturbed and took to the “it’s just TWITTER” and called the A List Comedian “washed”…
OH (insert kermit face)
Well… I hope Rick Ross would be more concerned with locals messing up his concert than a few harmless jokes chris Rock said during an awards show. But hey I’m just a girl who watched from her tv. I’m not even cool enough to be there …Guess i’ll go eat and put on my waist trainer and pray I never get diabetes… HA!!
If you are like me and tired of being a thot or searching for them… WALLAH!! Heres a report including some ideas for great vacations including Memorial Day weekend Getaways… Including Dominican Republic, Myrtle Beach and Chicago. Now if you are looking for a hoodtastic, freaknik of a time may I suggest the typical options Miami, Vegas and Black Bike Week.
I myself with be in the Bahamas… But if you waited please be advised Groupon and Trip Advisor are some great places to find good deals. I think the best deals include all inclusive so that you can eat, drink and do some adventures.
So when she heard Take Me To The King, clearly she was like I’m going to gangsta boogie into my mans arms… I really wish I hadn’t stumbled upon this. Mostly because I’m curious was her outfit the slip cover for a luv seat. Now unlike most twerk stars she has more furniture than most and for this alone I am thankful. Initially I was was taken back by the disappearance of her tittays but to my surprise, she turns around and you can see that they have shifted to her back.
All great fat jokes aside, I applaud her ambition. Mostly because mid way she takes to lighting a blunt. My times smoking that Kush I was too sleepy and hungry to dance, exercise, hell anything that would incur cardio. Well enjoy, and if you find yourself lonely tweeting or posting on Facebook never forget you can always take to your living room and get your gangsta boogie on.
As a breast cancer survivor, this message means a lot to me!! If you can notice my port (where I got my chemo) in the above photo. It’s on my right side because my left breast was affected… I honestly am thankful for enduring this, it has made me a better person, closer to God and brought me close to my friends and family. If anyone you know is battling Cancer please be there for them. I wouldn’t wish this on anyone. If you are under 40 and have a family history of breast cancer please notify your doctors and get screenings early.
Lupe Fiasco returns with a new song “Mission” that is to empower those who have or are suffering. Also, help those who have lost remember their loved ones. Lupe has teamed up with Stand Up To Cancer as a celebrity ambassador. With so many new cases occurring every year, please be proactive in health screenings. Prostate, Breast and Lung Cancer are the three highest types of Cancer effecting men and women. Please support with research, fundraisers and this song.
I’ve been juicing for a while… I can honestly say I feel so much better and am considering giving up meat all together. Definitely will need Jesus on deck for that. I really have escaped beef for the most part, as well as pork. I add ginger to all of my juices and mushroom liquid. Thats more for a personal needs, not required.
This lady is giving a great YouTube guide to prepping your juices. I definitely think prepping your juices will keep you from trying to set stuff you shouldn’t. Give it a watch and if you know any other great channels, or recipes leave a comment.
As an actual fan of the song, I was a bit disturbed to see the video. I understand the whole concept of dressing up and make believe but its something about this video I was just not feeling. Maybe it was Katy Perry, Maybe it was juicy J. I don’t know, there were some obvious blatant stereotypes, but I expect that from HollyWeird.
One of my favorite people to do parody, Bart Baker does it again in this parody of Dark Horse and actually touches on a few of the funny things happening in her life. Watch and don’t forget to check out his other videos.